Throughout so many walls of barriers, we always managed to pull through. It has only been a short while, but it felt as it has been many months.
What I'm actually talking about is that, we may have our differences, we may have thoughts of our own, we make our own decisions but what I know is that no matter how big the differences, my love for her will never wither.
I may be hot tempered, I may be rough on my words but all in all, it's for a better understanding.
No matter how hot the plate is, gradually it'll cool down. I know I've not been a great boyfriend, and I'm still trying to be one. To be honest, if you were to compare me back with the past, I'm sure you will see a pretty huge difference.
I've learnt to be patient, to think positively and also I've learnt to make things right. Well, most of the time I still get it wrong but hey, I guess we learn from our mistakes.
Shanker always says that only a positive mind shall bring you positive results, no matter what we do. It's true. I've no money, it is okay, I'll just work harder for it. I've no clothes, no worries, by working hard I earn the money and I'll get myself some. Sometimes we need to know how to be positive and bring ourselves up instead of thinking all the negativity that would pull us down.
My girlfriend is a great friend, a great lover and also a great companion. I'm very sure she's also a patient person but not most of the time. Hehe. At least she can "tahan" me, I think it's pretty good.
I'm really a noob when it comes to relationships, and seriously I am. Girls like to be pampered, sometimes I overdo it, sometimes I don't know when to do it. Girls likes guys who takes initiative to make them happy, I don't think I took much initiative to do so. Therefore I still am going to learn, all these mistakes, all these wrongdoings and make myself a better person. * After all the apple juice aloe vera and chatime, kekeke*
I'm sorry dear for all the miscommunications, all the misunderstandings and also the things I've said wrong. We need to compromise, work together as a team. Relationship is also about teamwork, as the saying goes, it takes two to tango. What I'm writing here is to share with you what we could do to improve for our future's sake.
I wouldn't be stupid enough to lose you, I wouldn't be stupid enough to make you mad. Please understand that sometimes we might have our time where things might not go our way, we just have to be flexible. Not everything goes to plan, but we can make do. Sometimes, listen to my reason for you might misunderstand what I did or say. I'm not a silly guy who chooses to anger you or make you feel disappointed.
It's all about communications and I know we might have a different level of language, gradually we'll both be better at each other's language. If worst come to worst, I guess we'll just go to sign language. Heheheh.
My dear Jiajing, this post isn't to mock you or to lecture you. It is a post whereby I choose to share with you my thoughts, not wanting you to get the wrong message that sometimes might get the wrong perspective. I want you to know that I'm still trying my very best to make things work, to be as how you want me to be and I want to be as how I want you to want me to be ( this line very tricky ).
I may be forgetful, I may not be attentive at times, do forgive me. But do know that everyone deserves respect, everyone deserves dignity. It is nice to sometimes ask someone nicely for things we want, even if we are close friends or lovers. I mean it wouldn't really hard to be nice right? I know you don't totally mean to ask me so directly ( I think you know why, :P ). Sometimes we say things that we didn't mean to, sometimes we say things that we might get the wrong idea. Let's not jump into conclusion and take it into a discussion where we both won't build a fire between us. Silence isn't golden. Silence only creates more confusion as the other person does not get the feedback. Imagine if you ask someone, "hey, what do you think of this pie?" and the other person just keeps quiet. Rather awkward isn't it?
We voice out what we feel, it is good to be honest, to be truthful. Truth hurts, but it's better than lies that hurts.
I've always been a klutz, and you made me a better person. You gave me so much expectations, I just don't want to disappoint you. I've learnt so much from just being with you, I won't disappoint you and I can't tell you how much I love you. It's beyond words can say.
I would like to apologize for our yesterday which suppose to turn out to be a great day instead of a gloomy one. I'll try my best, and I hope you do too. And again, just a reminder that this isn't something to "shoot" you or whatsoever, but I am just merely sharing with you and the readers too.
No matter how hard we stir the water in the cup, eventually the water will be calm.
Meaning : no matter how complicated things are, no matter what obstacles we face, we can always overcome it, with our love and trust. I love you, Ee Jiajing.
Take my hand, let's tango baby. Love you.
P.s Already miss you, come back soon from Segamat. Feels weird without you by my side. Couldn't sleep without you by my side, so I'm here to blog. See, I'm using time wisely. hehehehe.
