* It's so boring!! *

Omg finally, holidays! Rawr! it's so boring. Gonna find myself a job to earn some stupid cash to support myself! omg. :( so sad.

Life's been pretty dull, nothing much as usual. SAD MAN, my blog isn't so happening WeH! But we did a pretty neat music video for my film studies assignment and it was not bad i guess. And guess what, the winner of this music assignment won rm100. Like wtf man! I could have worked a little harder and won the cash right?

Really Lol ! Well, i guess i must have been pretty lifeless, been going cc almost everyday BUT i've been working out a little to try to keep myself fit but i epicly fail. hehe. No worries! I shall not give up for i shall be determine to keep myself fit and muscular. Maybe not now la. Kekeke.

I've been living a nocturnal live now, and heck my parents isn't liking this. But, I guess i need to change my lifestyle too. Sigh, things have been so different without her. But then again, life goes on as it suppose to be.

I need to talk to someone now. Pour out my feelings and let myself loose. Feel like going up to Genting, sit by Starbucks and enjoy the breeze, and then walk down the lane near the hill and shout my heart out! RAWR!

Who's the lucky person?

To be continue... ;)

* ESP HotDog 1901 *

On the 19th of May, a couple of us gathered for this outing call ESP 1901 Hotdog Day. Host was Adrian Chow who actually didn't make it because he had to celebrate his gf's bday. Hahaha, and so we still move on without the host. Happy birthday to Jamie too! Not forgetting my other brother from another mother name Fung How, HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLD FART! hahahaha.

Well, not many ESP manage to turn up but hey, it's still fun no matter what. The people who went were
1. Raymond Pui aka Chucky
2. Me of course.
3.Joel Khor
4. Carment Loo
5. Don Shue
6. Khoo Yit Meng
7.Wayne Chua
8. Calvin aka Bambino
9. Kelvin Loo
10.Kimli ( Kelvin's new gf)
11. Afiq Aka Goat
12. Lee Bumil aka Joosuc
13. Meng Soon
14. Gary Heng
15. Daryl Heng

We gotten together at Pro X and then went to The Curve to the 1901 but we found out that the 1901 in curve has closed down due to certain reasons. So Don Shue called and informed us to go to Centrepoint's 1901 since it is the nearest one next to The Curve so we immediately change venue. Funny thing is that Raymond aka Chucky doesn't know where the entrance to the IKEA parking. Lmao, its just funny the way u hear it.

So we moved on to Centrepoint where we saw Don Shue, Khoo Yit Meng and Wayne Chua there. They were already lining up for the hot dogs. It is not bad ya know the Hot Dogs, Rm1.99 for one only on the 19th of every month.

Almost everyone bought like 5 each but I know i won't be able to finish it so i got myself 2. :D CheerS~!

This are the pictures that was taken.

* Time is essence *

Hey people, sorry about not updating this blog of mine. Just did not feel like blogging at the moment. Nothing much to say anyway.

Life's pretty simple as now i only have college and gaming to go. Seems pretty lifeless but yea..Things got a little better with me and her. Too much grudges to hold against her and i don't think i'm the type who holds it in forever. Pretty much, i guess it is alright.

Some things popped up into my life and i doubt i will let anybody know about it. So far only one know. Besides my parents though. If that person is reading this, he/she would know what i meant.

Things might not go as how it may seems but at least, I appreciate things as how it is. Sigh, emo emo emo.

* Another victory *

Just recently on the 25th of April, I had a Cod4 tournament at Tbun Aman Suria. Won first placing for team and 2nd placing for free for all. Prize was not much but we still won anyway.

Pretty much, my life's been nothing much interesting as my daily routine is almost about the same as always. Only just, that i don't have my other half with me this time. It has been 2 months since then. Almost 3 now. Friends were supportive but back in my house, constant nagging from parents.

Sigh. I really don't know what to do anymore. How can a person's heart be so solid hard no matter how much i sacrifice or willing to help that person? Speaking about facing reality.

Nonetheless, i doubt there's anything i can do to change the facts of life. Got to buckle up for my studies. Something is telling me that Cod4 is dying. I don't see the competitive spirit among the players anymore.

Sigh. People changes interest very fast huh.. same goes for love.. What is love all about then?

When one say true love is how both side expressed each others feelings, then how come true love will end so easily without a fight? Giving up when you did not even try? It's like saying that you can never be the best. You can, if only you work your way up.

Gary told me that he believe that i have the capability to be one of the best snipers in Malaysia. That's if i want to work my way up. To buckle up and keep up the consistency. I think what he speaks is right.

Recently, there has been a lot of controversy at my ex's blog. People keeps on dissing on her and discriminate her. I mean like, comon give it a rest. It's been almost 3 months plus this has been going on. Let it go people.

Even I can't do much to change who she wants to be. It is up to her, her own willpower to change into a better person. I think she is trying to. But you people out there are not giving her the chance to step out of the box.

I've given my best and if that isn't enough for her, that means i'm not the one for her. It is her choice to pick who she wants to be with, who she wants to be friends with. You people out there do not have the rights to tell her who to mix with or who she can be with. She chosed what she wants. And that is how things would be like as for now.

Please understand and put yourself in her shoes and think how it would be like when there's the world out there going against you and you have so little people to believe in you. It's not easy and yet it is very stressful.

As for now, only time will heal all matters. Give it a rest people. I only ask this favor from you for those who reads this. Everyone deserves a 2nd chance. If he/she misses that chance, they deserves a 3rd and so on. Life's not all about revenge and anger.

Do not let anger burn and rage inside you as it will only condemn you.

there's only 1 thing, 2 do, 3 words, 4 you.. XD

-kel-

P.s. Love is something that i would not give up and i shall see it around the corner soon ;)

* CyberFusion *

Me walking down to victory. Lol.

We got interviewed by some hot reporter. It's pretty funny when i'm actually between two huge and tall guys.

The venue

My teammate and myself. Getting ready to register.

*smiles*

My team. ESP botaski. If you ever wonder what is botaski, go to youtube and watch this video clip called CATSHITONE. Awesome anime.

We're not the same height. Or at least i think i'm the tallest. I'm just bending down. Hehehe.

Retarded friend *Meng soon*. Lol. And also one of Malaysia's top Call of duty 4 player.

When you're bored, there's always some way to entertain yourself. Lmao.

My clanmates. Not everyone is here but hey, it's still ESP.

Apparently Gamestah editted this picture for us. Not bad eh?

Waiting for our turn to start.

The computers were great.

The Chart.

Esp. Botaski in action. From left, Mr.Pikachu aka Khoo Yit Meng, me, Holyboy aka Don shue, Quack aka Justin Lim and lastly, Jiat aka Wei Jiat.

When you're bored and stressed out, this is the most suitable item to buy.

Really.

Me and Kitteh's chick.

Pretty much i had plenty of fun. Special thanks to Cathrynn for taking the effort to come and support us although i told her not to bring that eyesore to come but it's the thought that counts, Jasmin too and her bf, Carment Loo who came by to support everyone, Mildred who is our whacko manager and most importantly, special thanks to Douglas for making this event run smoothly.

As for me now, days past so fast that i can't believe I've been actually single for like.. almost 2 months. Things changed so much but yet life still has to go on. I really can't help it when she's sitting with him and did not even acknowledge my existence. Seriously, acknowledge someone is better than ignoring.

Oh well, some people just don't learn from what they so-called mistakes. No matter how much i tried to help her, that "guy" just kept on poisoning her mind. Sigh. I can't help much once she's in his grasp. Only way to help her is to just tie something on to her and pull her out. Honestly, she's in all these mess, only because she made it happen. If she did not talked to him, if she did not meet up with him, all these wouldn't happen.

She said, when she talks to me nowadays, people start talking about her and spreading bullshit rumors. Like i said, if you want to make a change in what others say, you can always prove them wrong when you're with me. Its either you want to or not. What difference does it makes when u go out with that "guy" and other people sees u with him? No difference right? He's just about the same as me? Cos either way also people are still going to talk about you. So what if you came and whisper to me? Let people say what they want to say! So what do you think when you walk in, into pro x and others see u walking in with that "guy", talking so closely with him and whispering to him. How much difference is he compared to me?

Why is your reputation so bad around Dj? Have you ever thought that if you did not talk to "him", people would ever say anything about you? Well pretty much, it was you who started playing with the fire.

Sigh i really can't do much anymore but only hope for the best for her.

* feeling awkward *

Is it just me.. or somehow i always feel her "presence" around me. I always have this feeling that i can smell her hair shampoo around me, her perfume and her voice.. Weird..

* Somehow, somewhere *

I really think that only now, words can't express my feelings. Like some say, a picture worth a thousand words.

A word of Courage.

* I WONDER... *

How things would be like, if I have not met her at cc.

How i would feel, standing alone in a competition without support.

How it is like to love and to be loved.

How simple things might be.

How my heart would feel with, or without pain.

How it is like to have someone supporting you no matter what you did.

How to please a girl.

How to understand a girl.

How to listen to a girl.

And most importantly,

How to love a girl.

Sigh.

I wonder.. *scratch my botak head*

P.s. Oh btw guys, im botak! :D not exactly bald but its just really really short. Just like some Shaolin Monk.

2nd P.s. My heart still aches.

3rd P.s. RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4th p.s. I need to win.