this is dam fucked up man..SERIOUSLy dam fucked up..*sori to those out there..im just plain pissed*.. so dam annoyed wif my dad..dam pissed wif him..he thinks im fuckin immature..tat's wat he always say...dammit..im like applying all the collages he asked me to and im doing it..its not like im having so much free time also..somehow everytime i go out also he nags..everything i do also he nags..everything i say he nags..FCUK MAN! ..yea i know..at times i talked i know im kinda rude..but plz understand my situation ..i may seem stupid to u..lazy..but tats my past..i havent even started studying he said i haf no interest to study..i mean like..wtf..how can he simply conclude tat im a good-for-nothing guy? everyone can change..i once said it and im going to say it again..ppl changes..its not like ppl can change overnite..it takes bloody long time..so as i did some application forms online..i accidently applied diploma in technology(quantiti surveying)-campus in penang but i managed to change it to KL campus..but.. he said..he cant afford to send me there..im too immature..my thinking is like a child..so mild..he wudnt wan to spend his money on me.. etc etc..all this bullshits..i cant take it anymore! im ALREADY 18! and he treats me like a fcuking 4 years old boy..i really need him to support me at times like this and this is wat i get...im..im about to reach a dead end road..i dun care man..im going to study at TARC and tats final..im gonna proof to him tat he is totally absolutely wrong about me..tat kelvin he knows is the past..wat he havent discover was the kelvin now..argh..this is super annoying..i mean..the whole course is like max 7k! and he say tat he cant afford to send me..seriously im dam sad now..the only person who i can depend on..besides my mom..turned me down..im..just out of words..THIS WORLD IS SO UNFAIR! ..God please help me as it is..life isnt the way things shud b...though i know my spm results totally suck..but i wan to improve and proof to him tat i can actually make him proud..i cant say anymore..im just too upset..my mom isnt saying anything to convince my dad bout it..somehow im like the black sheep of the family..totally left out..i really wan to prove to him tat i can do it and make my family proud..i just ned him to give me 1 more chance..the last chance..give me a chance to show u tat im a grown up..and im not immature..
p.s. sori ppl..for saying all those vulgar words..its just the anger in me.. >.< hope u guys understand..
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