How Lucky Can I be?

In the past years, after my previous relationship, I've been through a lot of various "tryouts" with girls who made my life clearer than before. I came to realize that love is just not that simple. It's not just " I love you and you love me". It's more than just that.

It requires a lot of compromising. It takes two to tango, it's not easy to tango, it's not easy to be perfect, but practice makes perfect. There's so much I've learnt in this relationship with my beloved Ee JiaJing and I can't thank her enough because she make me complete. 

I lub lub you! *snuggle snuggle*

You are my magnet. My lips are always on your lips or cheeks. *ahhhhhh Piak..Stucked* :P

You always make me so cute. 

How adorable are we? Damn ADORABLE I TELL YOU!

Things have gotten much better as it is not as bad as before, we did more comprising and a lot of understanding each other. She's really an ideal girlfriend. I don't know what I can do without her. You are the pillar of my life now dear, and you make me who I am today. I'll always keep pushing myself further and with your support, I'll be heading even higher. 

Isn't she a beauty? Look at those beautiful eyes, and that gorgeous smile.

There isn't a day I can stop thinking about her, even in my sleep I see her. I think I'm crazily in love, and I can't help myself from loving her, hugging her and cuddling with her. 

And we're now 3 months and counting!

The best part was that she wrote a 100 reasons why she love me! And dear, I can give you more than just a 100 reasons, because you are my everything! 

I knew I loved you when I realized that there was no one else I would rather laugh, cry and make memories with.You’re the one reason I wake up in the morning, you’re the one reason I find a way to smile, you’re the one person that can change everything around when it is going bad. Your eyes, your smile, your everything, your laugh, your look in your eyes when you talk to me. It’s just everything about you that makes me want you even more. I love you so deeply,I love you so much, I love the sound of your voice and the way that we touch, I love your warm smile and your kind thoughtful ways and the joy that you bring to my life everyday, I love you today as I have from the start and I'll love you forever with all of my heart.

Dear, there are so many ways to say "I love you", but not enough words in the world to say how much.I never thought I would meet someone like you. Until I met your eyes, my heart jumped. 

Being in love isn't about picturing yourself with one person for the rest of your life. It is about not being able to picture yourself without that person for one day

Before I met you I never knew what it was like to smile for no reason. Some people thinks I'm crazy. Yeah, I think I am. Crazily in love. I love you! 

 

I think, I can say I'm a celebrity! Jk.

It's been a few great months and I think I'm liking it. I attended 3 huge major events and this is also because of my beautiful girlfie who managed to win/grab all these exclusive passes/tickets.

I've never really attended any of these major events before, and I never really knew how it was like. Being there for the first time and of course, with my beloved Jiajing was truly something I wouldn't forget. Moments like these are just gonna be part of my life.

So here's the first event I attended. It was Hennessy Artistry 2011 that was held at MIECC and how did I manage to get these tickets? All thanks to my girlfie and her bestie who got these tickets from a famous local blogger, Tim Chew ( I think that's how you spell his name ).

I didn't really took much pictures that night but I did manage to snap one with my girlfie before we went into the event hall.

She's really beautiful

That night, it was really happening. I met loads of my friends, high school friends, college mates, working colleagues and my boss was even there. It was free flow of VSOP for the night, so I pampered myself with a couple too many drinks and got myself a little too tipsy. Fortunately I was still sober although I have not drink for a long time. For me, it was 8/10. The performance and entertainment was great, people there too were happening. Oh, there was one funny moment. When I arrived at the entrance, the bouncer ( who was a Malay ) stopped me and so I told him that I'm looking for the entrance ( in Bahasa Melayu, of course ). He suddenly looked serious and he asked me if I was a Malay.

I knew I have this really tanned skin so I get this alot. So I spoke to my girlfie in Chinese where she was laughing her ass off when this occurred but the bouncer still insisted on me giving him my identification card. And so I did. He then apologize and allowed me to enter. Just to share with you peeps. 

2nd event, Step Inside The Johnnie Walker Black Circuit Brazil.

For this event, I won the tickets my own, and of course with the help of my great friend, Wae Lern. And so I gotten myself 4 exclusive passes to attend this event and I invited my love, her bestie and one of my close working buddies, Lim Wei Sin. 

Here are some pictures to begin with.

Picture Perfect

She's a Beauty

Nadia Heng? Who's that? I don't know either!

And so, we begun our Johnnie Walker experience with the introduction of their liquor, Black Labels, Gold Labels and some new Label which I couldn't recall. After that, we entertained ourselves with their autosnap cameras and also some weird video that has our facebook pictures in it. We also played some metal rod game which lights up if we touch it. Wei Sin and I came across this drink and it taste seriously a.w.e.s.o.m.e.

It is called, For Romeo. Suits me ;) 

After that, we went and find ourselves a table and thanks to this lady, Nadia Heng who did not make it or couldn't find her table, we vacant ourselves on her table! Each table has a bottle of Black Label and these Black Labels aren't like those we drink from the clubs. These liquor have really good grades and it tastes really different compared to those we drink from clubs. 

We drank whole night long, danced and it was fun. It was just the 4 of us but 4's a crowd isn't it? I got a little too tipsy and caused some scene. Thanks to my girlfriend who took great care of me. Or I think she did. Lol.

And finally, we attended a Guinness Launching last Tuesday on the 29th November 2011. Thanks to my girlfriend who managed to be the lucky winners, I get to enjoy my truly first fine dining!

-I am pleased to inform you that you have been chosen as one of our lucky winners to attend the launch of the Merry GUINNESS on Tuesday, 29^th November 2011 at Double Hilton! You will be among the first few people in Malaysia to attend this exclusive launch and to taste the special GUINNESS-infused Christmas dishes created by MasterChef Adam Liaw especially for our Merry GUINNESS celebrations.-

There's plenty of pictures of the food, it's all on my girlfriend's page, you can check it out at her page. http://www.facebook.com/jiajing.ee 

Most of these food have been mixed with Guinness Stout but personally, I didn't really like some of it but it was a great experience to witness a master chef at work.

She means the world to me.

 

I'm beginning to love these and I really wish to attend more. Can't wait! 

P.s. I love my girlfriend! Sorry for being all soppy but hey, it's me. 

Title of the day, Love again.

Something I would like to share with you, dear.


The struggles make you stronger, the changes make you wiser
& the happiness has a way of taking its sweet time.
Life ain't always beautiful, but it's a beautiful ride.

There's three little words,they were dying to tell each other.No, it wasn't 'I love you', it was 'we belong together'.








When it comes to relationships, people are always so scared of the what-if's till that they forget what-is. They spend so much time thinking, " what if i get hurt? " & " what if it doesn't work out ? " until that they stop thinking about things that are already real. They forget the feeling they get when the person they love walks into the room & the excitement that rushes through them when the phone rings cause it might be the person they are waiting to hear from. Never let the fear of what-if stop you from letting yourself take a chance on love, because what if this is the person you're destined to spend the rest of your life with?

Stop thinking of what could go wrong & think of what could go right.

I love you. You annoy me as much as possible,but I want to spend every little irritating minute with you. I adore you.

There's been a lot of ups and downs, but ultimately, at the end of the day, that's what makes you who you are. We all know how to laugh, we all know how to cry, and we all know how to love. We all know heartbreak, but the world keeps on moving, and we keep moving along with it and everything we expierience makes us realize how beautiful life truly is.

It has been 2 months, you've made me feel alive.You made me feel handsome,intelligent & wanted and no matter how hard I try, I'll never be able to tell you how much that means to me. You mean the world to me, and no matter how much we argue, it'll gradually make things a little better in future, hopefully.



Love you dear, Ee Jiajing.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

How could you not love her? She's all I ever wanted.

Have you ever tried being so close to someone that you know everything about the person?
Even with bad habits and you still love the person as much?
Have you ever tried being completely yourself in front of someone you love?
Even if it means showing her all your bad habits and not worrying what she would think of you?
They say if you love someone, let her go.
If she comes back, she's yours to keep.
If she doesn't come back, she's never meant to be.
How true is that?

Everyone says that love hurts, but that's not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain.
I believe that jealousy and possessiveness occurs only by the act of deep love and affection which snatch ones craving heart. If you have no feelings to that person there's also no sign of insecurities or jealousy in your heart.

Something deep down pulled me towards you, all I know is that you are the one that I cant stop seeing, can't stop thinking about or always need talk to. I need you in my life.
I love my girlfriend. ♥ She's everything to me.

Love is what matters most, indeed.

Throughout so many walls of barriers, we always managed to pull through. It has only been a short while, but it felt as it has been many months.

What I'm actually talking about is that, we may have our differences, we may have thoughts of our own, we make our own decisions but what I know is that no matter how big the differences, my love for her will never wither.

I may be hot tempered, I may be rough on my words but all in all, it's for a better understanding.

No matter how hot the plate is, gradually it'll cool down. I know I've not been a great boyfriend, and I'm still trying to be one. To be honest, if you were to compare me back with the past, I'm sure you will see a pretty huge difference.

I've learnt to be patient, to think positively and also I've learnt to make things right. Well, most of the time I still get it wrong but hey, I guess we learn from our mistakes.

Shanker always says that only a positive mind shall bring you positive results, no matter what we do. It's true. I've no money, it is okay, I'll just work harder for it. I've no clothes, no worries, by working hard I earn the money and I'll get myself some. Sometimes we need to know how to be positive and bring ourselves up instead of thinking all the negativity that would pull us down.

My girlfriend is a great friend, a great lover and also a great companion. I'm very sure she's also a patient person but not most of the time. Hehe. At least she can "tahan" me, I think it's pretty good.

I'm really a noob when it comes to relationships, and seriously I am. Girls like to be pampered, sometimes I overdo it, sometimes I don't know when to do it. Girls likes guys who takes initiative to make them happy, I don't think I took much initiative to do so. Therefore I still am going to learn, all these mistakes, all these wrongdoings and make myself a better person. * After all the apple juice aloe vera and chatime, kekeke*

I'm sorry dear for all the miscommunications, all the misunderstandings and also the things I've said wrong. We need to compromise, work together as a team. Relationship is also about teamwork, as the saying goes, it takes two to tango. What I'm writing here is to share with you what we could do to improve for our future's sake.

I wouldn't be stupid enough to lose you, I wouldn't be stupid enough to make you mad. Please understand that sometimes we might have our time where things might not go our way, we just have to be flexible. Not everything goes to plan, but we can make do. Sometimes, listen to my reason for you might misunderstand what I did or say. I'm not a silly guy who chooses to anger you or make you feel disappointed.

It's all about communications and I know we might have a different level of language, gradually we'll both be better at each other's language. If worst come to worst, I guess we'll just go to sign language. Heheheh.

My dear Jiajing, this post isn't to mock you or to lecture you. It is a post whereby I choose to share with you my thoughts, not wanting you to get the wrong message that sometimes might get the wrong perspective. I want you to know that I'm still trying my very best to make things work, to be as how you want me to be and I want to be as how I want you to want me to be ( this line very tricky ).

I may be forgetful, I may not be attentive at times, do forgive me. But do know that everyone deserves respect, everyone deserves dignity. It is nice to sometimes ask someone nicely for things we want, even if we are close friends or lovers. I mean it wouldn't really hard to be nice right? I know you don't totally mean to ask me so directly ( I think you know why, :P ). Sometimes we say things that we didn't mean to, sometimes we say things that we  might get the wrong idea. Let's not jump into conclusion and take it into a discussion where we both won't build a fire between us. Silence isn't golden. Silence only creates more confusion as the other person does not get the feedback. Imagine if you ask someone, "hey, what do you think of this pie?" and the other person just keeps quiet. Rather awkward isn't it?

We voice out what we feel, it is good to be honest, to be truthful. Truth hurts, but it's better than lies that hurts.

I've always been a klutz, and you made me a better person. You gave me so much expectations, I just don't want to disappoint you. I've learnt so much from just being with you, I won't disappoint you and I can't tell you how much I love you. It's beyond words can say.

I would like to apologize for our yesterday which suppose to turn out to be a great day instead of a gloomy one. I'll try my best, and I hope you do too. And again, just a reminder that this isn't something to "shoot" you or whatsoever, but I am just merely sharing with you and the readers too.

No matter how hard we stir the water in the cup, eventually the water will be calm.
Meaning : no matter how complicated things are, no matter what obstacles we face, we can always overcome it, with our love and trust. I love you, Ee Jiajing.

Take my hand, let's tango baby. Love you.






P.s Already miss you, come back soon from Segamat. Feels weird without you by my side. Couldn't sleep without you by my side, so I'm here to blog. See, I'm using time wisely. hehehehe.

So many things to learn, it's time to pick it up.

It somehow hits me that I'm literally brand-spanking new when it comes to a relationship. There's so much that I don't know but yet so interesting. There's so much things to do, so much things to say, so much thing to think about.

I always thought I was a very nice, sweet and considerate guy, NOPE. So not that person. I guess this is like a new road for me, to discover and I'm sure it's not going to be a easy walk.

You know, it is sometimes quite confusing. To know what she needs and to know what she doesn't. To know what she wants, and what she doesn't. So all these things I've to take notes and actually keep that in mind because I don't think she is the only one who is teaching me but also teaching me to be a better person and a better lover.

Recently we had our misunderstandings, and also our miscommunication. Sometimes what we say, might end up getting the wrong perception, sometimes what we do, might end up getting the wrong doings. Even so, I always will try to fix it, in the best way I could find.

Yes, I may be hot tempered and also very naggy but hey, I just want to make things right.

                                                                    I'm Soweee..

And I know I sent this to you already but I feel like I want to share it again. Dear, when you are upset.. to be honest with you, I don't have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to give you a hug, ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a hear, a heart that's aching to see your smile again.

There was a day when you said "that Words can only bring you to a point where actions come in to take you all the way"  and I know that you were actually saying it to me. I said before, and I'll say it again that I may not be everything that you ever wanted, but I'm always going to be more than what you deserve. I may not be the best, but I'm not like the rest. I'm unique in my own ways, you know it,dear. And I want you to know I'm still giving my best although it may not seem as how it should be.

Never judge its book by its cover. Nonetheless, my love for you never withers and it grows tremendously large as days passes. I love you and I always do, Ee Jiajing!

Almost A Month Of Happiness

Nothing is perfect, but I'm always trying to make it the best out of it.

It has been almost a month, in fact, it's just one day before tomorrow that we've been together. I have not been happier before in my life. The days seems brighter, everyday I wake up to look forward for something good to happen. I've not been an emotional guy for quite a while and it is all thanks to my beloved girlfriend, Jazel Ee Jiajing.

I've learn a lot from her and I hope she does learn something about me. Although we only have been together for just almost a month, it felt like it was a whole lifetime. Still got to get use to how things works, and hopefully it'll eventually work out. As I get to know her more, she is still amazing no matter what. We all do mistakes all the time, it's whether we want to fix it or choose to ignore.

So of late, I've been thinking of many ways to make her happy. To keep her company, to see her smile, to hear her laughter. She brings me joy and happiness, what more could I ask? I love every bit of her to bits!

Do you see why I love her so much? Hehe..

Picture shows a thousand words, video shows visual AND a thousand words. So I managed to capture some special moments with her and it is never dull. It's funny no matter how many times I watch it and never fails to put a smile on my face.

She always have these deals online where she purchases them really cheap, so she gotten me a really awesome deal at Kalamazoo! Let the video do the talking!

So there is one part of our video together. Here's another when we had our dinner together at Midvalley Chilis.

                               And there was one time, we went back to visit her parents, ( I know it seems super fast but it was just to get to know each others family better and also to find out if I got her father's approval to date her * hehehe * ), she made me egg tarts and cookies! 


                                  
And of course, a video of our day when we officially became an item.
                                             


So now readers, do you see why I'm so deeply in love with her? Picture shows a thousand words, Video shows visual AND a thousand words, my girlfriend? She showed me what love is all about. I'm not ashamed of showing my love for my girlfriend, and I'm sorry if this post offended anyone :D just to be safe. lol. Dear, don't kill me when you see this! MUAKS!  

I love you, Ee Jiajing!

And after 12am tonight, Happy 1month Anniversary! Problems, we solve it together, Happiness, we share it together, Love, we each other, Smile, we smile together. 

P.s. Dear, I know you will read this, I want to apologize for all the wrong doings I did for this past month, I will work on it to be a better person. Hope you could guide me through and we'll go through this together! Love you to bits.

3 words..

I love you. 3 simple words. 3 words that means so much. 3 words that carries a whole lot of weight. Being with her is the best feeling I ever have before. I wouldn't be silly enough to lose her. And best thing of all, she already knew. =)

Official. Finally.

It has finally been official! It drives me nuts thinking of all those ways to make her mine, and I knew mine wasn't the bomb but I hope it really made her feel touched.

We're suppose to go to Pulau Jerejak on the 16th sept and it ended up being postpone due to unforeseen circumstances. So in fact I wanted to make plans just before that date, to figure out what is the most romantic way to ask her to be mine.

Funny thing, couple days before I asked her, we went clubbing together for the first time, and I am seriously amused! She's really hot,sexy and seductive but yet she can't drink for nuts! hahaha.. This is a picture of her before she got tipsy. Don't kill me kays love ;)

And so I forgotten to take pictures of the things I've gotten for her but I could briefly tell you what it is like, so you can picture it. It's a love heart shape box, like a chocolate box but it's really cushion-ny, inside the box I left a couple bear, one brown and one white, a box of necklace and a note specially made by me.


This is the necklace I've gotten for her. Hope she likes it.


So basically on the 13th of September, I made up my mind to ask her to be mine. It was a sudden thought and a last minute decision so while I was working, I managed to get all those stuffs in time. The reason why I picked 13th is because if you say it in cantonese, it actually means One heart. Something that both of us share.Then comes the trick.

I asked my colleague to help me find some fine dining restaurants in Tropicana City Mall while I told my love that we've a movie to catch, from FlyFm. Premier Movie, Fright Night with media coming, dress nicely I asked her. Surprisingly she didn't figure out what my motive was.

So eventually, I got home, late from work and I was rushing. She was already on the way to my house to get ready to go for the "movie" that I've asked to to watch with me. I took the note that I wanted to write a whole lot of things for her and burn the sides, making it look really special. But she arrived at my place earlier than I expected and she came up to my room while I was writing my note! I've yet to finish so I quickly told her to go back down. I could tell she wasn't happy but I didn't have any choice.

Then I quickly finish up my note and burned the corners of it. I'll post up the pictures again when I manage to get a picture of it. And silly me, I totally forgotten that the burnt smell was still in the room and i told her to come up to my room but she didn't. So I guess she must be really pissed at me so I just washed up, clean up myself and gotten ready for the "movie".

She was really cold to me throughout the whole thing, but I told myself in my head, "patiences Kelvin, she'll love it when you pop the question". Throughout the journey to Tropicana City Mall she was rather quiet but I kept apologising to her and of course, she's not the type who holds grudges. I swear I could have seen those smiles around the corner of her mouth before she turns away looking somewhere else.

I brought a bag with me, and to not make it look so suspicious, I put a list of winner list for the movie and a shirt to cover up the box. And yes, she did not suspect anything.

Then I told her that I wanted to have dinner at San Francisco SteakHouse because I was really hungry and she didn't mind.

This is the best part, I sat down with her at the corner of San Francisco SteakHouse and we ordered. Then I pretend that I had a call from my colleague saying that I forgotten the shirt. So I told her that I needed to go and pass her the shirt. She didn't look too please but she was quite the chilling girl. So I left.

I went outside not far away to arrange everything, put the shirt down the bag, bring up the box and walked back to the restaurant. I must be a really good actor because till then she still didn't expect anything and so I told her I brought the "wrong" shirt. She believed. I said I might need to go back. She believed AND frowned. "Now? she said".

I said maybe, because I brought the wrong shirt. Then I took out the heart shape box. The smile on her face, impossible to forget. Mesmerizing and to be honest, I couldn't really see her eyes. Yup guys, you must have guessed it. She smiled so widely her eyes disappeared. ROFL! lol.

I don't think she teared but I could tell she's really really happy. I never realized I could bring so much happiness to one person. And she hugged me, we kissed, had our dinner. Caught a movie, the Smurfs, and eventually went home.

What a day right? It was exciting yet loving. I love her, and I really do. I'm not stupid enough to lose her.

I'll show you guys what I wrote, when I get all those things aite.

She's mine, finally and officially. Mine and only mine. Muahaha.

Lucky me. Lucky her. We're both lucky to have each other. Love you, JiaJing. :)

She's my woman, she's my world.

It has been almost a month since we last met. Every moment spent together with her is beautiful. Her smile, her looks, her personality or so u can say literally almost everything about her. She's been very understanding, a very sexy and seductive girl too! She has a unique way of expressing her love and I can say that I am really fortunate to have her in my life. It is to be said, like the water flows into a stream, gradually becomes a river and into the sea. Things slowly grew and one of it that I'll appreciate most is our love. Tho it only has been almost a month, but to us, it seems like it has been a long while. I enjoy getting to know her more, though getting on her wrong side of the book is really scary. We all have our good and bad side, so I guess it is a really wise move not to step into the red zone. Everytime when I speak of our time together, it doesn't fail to put a smile on her face. And that is what I plan to do. Make her smile, happy within all my capabilities. Because that is what I can say the most sweetest and the most beautiful smile I ever seen. Its genuine, it's sincere. You couldn't ask for more. What's even better is till now she isn't very judgmental. She's hard working, in some ways :p and she's considerate. Though she has a few bad habits, but hey, who's perfect? :) I love her to bits and that I'm sure of.

I shall be writing more since I have quite some time during my event work as an announcer.

love, Kelv.

She + me = cute. Kawai!~

Words, small yet powerful.

There's so much thing I've said, and sometimes saying it isn't always the best thing to do. When words hit you in the face, there's nothing you can do to take it back, but to just use words to heal that wound that you left on the face.

I'm sorry, I've used my words wrongly, and I knew that it was wrong but it came out anyhow and it made me felt terrible. I didn't want anything to happen to you, so I made that statement, hoping you would understand I would do anything to protect you from any harm.

I want you to know, my true intentions is to let you know, you can count on me, no matter what the situation is, I'll always try my best. I didn't mean to bring up the wrong meaning and also to anger you. As I told you before in the past, there are things that I might do or say wrongly, I hope you forgive me because all those that happened are things we will learn and not do in near future.

Deep inside, I know you knew I cared, perhaps I showed it wrongly. And it is my fault for being so harsh in my words I used. I'm sorry.

You don't know how much it hurts me to see you like this. I'm sorry and I love you.


You made me complete. Through my heart and soul. Mistakes are done, to be forgiven and to be learned. I.love.you.

Somethings made things right.

I never knew how doing things with your parents would actually be a great feeling. I always assumed that my parents were naggy and grumpy, always complaining about this and that. But I guess it was all for our own good, as we grow up, we will learn about those things our parents taught us through their naggings.

Today, I spent a little quality time with my dad, as he suggested that we should clean Jia Jing's car tyres. Apparently my dad said it looked really dusty so he told me to scrub it with a brush. And so I did! Seems like my dad really likes her, he always asked me to check the lubricant oil and the radiator water level.

So besides washing the car yesterday, and to my horror it looks like it's gonna rain heavily real soon ( it's 8.11am right now) but my dad didn't seem to be bothered about the weather. He told me everything can be washed so just do it. Then as I open the car bonnet, Jia Jing's car alarm rang so loudly, that both me and my dad jumped. Then we started laughing together seeing how silly we both reacted.

Eventually, I checked her car's sexy body and refilled everything that's required. Not only that, I cleaned her car inside because it really looked like a hurricane inside. I'm really surprised how a woman's car can be so messy when most of the time, our mentality towards women are always that they are neat, tidy and organized. Well Jia Jing is one but not in her car. Rofl. HEHE

And I noticed that it is like treasure hunt in her car. You can find at least 6 pair of heels, a couple of books, a bunch of charcoal wrapped with newspaper, a old 100plus bottle, empty sweet box and many more! Don't mind me mentioning here ya :P
Her Lost Treasures.


So eventually we made everything looked like super clean+neat+nicer?

I had a great time with my dad, kinda like the first time we actually had fun doing something together. He's a fun guy, after all I'm just as fun as him. Just not as bald as him. Lol. Sparkling Clean. See the twinkle?


So here I am writing this post, for my beloved girl who is currently not feeling well and sleeping right now, hope this puts a smile on your face on this beautiful day.

P.s ~ Webcamming has never been more fun,till I met her.

Kaya ball rocks.

Simple

Just a short simple post to show that distance makes us bond even stronger. Hope she's enjoying herself right now, while I'm sitting down here thinking about what to do for Merdeka Eve night.

:)

Honesty.

We all live our life in the way we choose to be and sometimes in order to get what we want, we use this word called "lies".

I've never been a perfectly honest guy in all my life. Maybe just a while when you come out from your mother's womb, that would be your first phase of life where we start our lives. Then as we grow older, sometimes we use lies to escape from trouble, or to get what we want.

I've lied many times before and lies will never run from you. What we lie, will continue to be with us for life. So then, I chose to make a choice. To be bluntly honest and straightforward.

Having this kind of personality wouldn't really be the perfect choice but it beats being a liar. This happens in all relationships, whether in our families or relationships.

So, what I appreciate most is the truth and honesty that would most likely be the cause of pain and happiness. For me, in most of my relationships or with the people, I always tell this to the people I care and love. My favorite line would be this, " I rather you be honest and tell me the truth, tho truth hurts like hell, but imagine finding out the truth for ourselves, it hurts more than just hell."

We make amends for the lies we make, and then we live on.

What she shared with me last night, was a good start to a new beginning. Hopefully things will continue on like that, and it will gradually grow between us. Not only just love, but the trust we build from a scratch. I truly appreciate her a lot, for clearing so much things and that would make me a better person too.

I used to be lied to so many times, till I don't know how to trust anymore. I became insecure and sensitive towards almost everything a girl does. In a way you can put it that I've became tremendously jealous and over possessive. It was difficult, being that person. But years gone by, and I'm a changed man.

I learnt that through all those that I've been through, I would become a better person in life. I was surprised, even to myself that I was able to overcome that insecure, over possessive personality. She made me different. She made me whole.

I guess that missing part of my life, that missing puzzle, I found the missing piece. It fits just right into that hole of emptiness. Whether she makes me complete, that is up to us right now. Our world, our story and our love begins from the moment we set our eyes upon each other.

We have our differences, but those differences made us bond even closer. But nothing beats our differences with the common things we have together. Our sense of fashion, food and love.

Like people say, don't look for love, let love find you. And I think it did. Thank you, it's been a while since I've been alone. She's like the light in the dark.

There's a favorite line I liked in her blog, "Yeap. It has been two weeks and still it’s awesomely awesome! He is awesome. And I am awesome too! "

Yup, we're awesome-ke-pawsome lovers.

Even more awesome than superman. HEE. Nights people.

P.s. Hope she comes back real soon. "Dear Jiajing, It's been a while since I last saw your smile, I want to make it the 81th time. Love, Kelvin"
(Sorry, only Jiajing knows this line :P )

B.L.O.G

What does blog actually means? What I've gotten from wikipedia, blog is a type of website or part of a website. Blogs are usually maintained by an individual with regular entries of commentary, descriptions of events, or other material such as graphics or video.

I've never, NEVER blogged so much before and it's totally different when you know someone's going to wake up and the first thing that special "someone" will do is to read my blog. It touches me so deep that I knew that the least I could do is just continue writing.

I do know that my english isn't exactly the best, but I guess if you can read this so far, I'm sure it's just alright. LoL. So here's my daily newpaper to you everyday if I could, for you to read and for me to put that smile on your face. 78th time yes? :P

When I read her blog, somewhere deep inside my heart felt so warm, the feeling of being wanted, the feeling of being loved for just the way you are. It's a whole new feeling, something that I dare say I've never gotten before.

Everytime she blogs, every post she wrote, I have butterflies in my stomach. She makes my stomach whirl like a wind, and it gives me goose bump. Not because every word she writes in her blog is scary or frightening but it's because every word she writes in her blog carries so much weight that I could feel it deep inside me.

Tho we're miles apart, our heart is forever together. =)


I'm crazily in love with her.

Picture perfect. We're indeed chocolate banana. ;)

It's been 2 weeks..

I watched a movie, called Dear John, and it really made me feel like I'm just like John in his shoes.

It is a very interesting story, but most unfortunate that I couldn't watch it all because I was too tired. What I love most was this, " It only has been two weeks, and it felt like it has been a year." The same scenario happens right now between me and JJ!

The time we spent together, although it may be for a short moment as how others may have seen it, but when we are together, it really does seem like it was like we've been through so much together.

We do have our differences but I can tell you how much crazy things we have in common. Food, taste in fashion, our thoughts, it is really crazy ya know? For me, it only has been two weeks, but that two weeks carried so much weight of memories to begin with.

It's like you carry a whole bunch of unfix puzzle and carry all those pieces together and gradually placing those pieces as how it should be. I don't think that time is exactly something we can say we have spent much together, but what I can say is that the time we spent together is something that we'll both treasure.

As I open my eyes, every time I woke up, I always asked myself, am I that fortunate to have found someone who loves me for who I am,not what I am. She's a gem, something I would treasure and keep it as long as I can. I hope she does the same for me too.

I won't be able to find anyone to replace her, because she is she, one in a million. Unique and special, sweet and hot. Awesome combination, that suits me just fine.

Love,
Kelvin.

I'm back!

Hey people, I'm back. It's been a really busy week for me, hectic week and also one of the best weeks of the month.

I've been working a lot and of course, spending much time with her, JJ.

I think in the previous posts, I kinda missed out one of the most important parts where she really made me felt so touched and wanted. It sort of started when I told her that I had an emcee job, it was my first and it was alright I guess.

My emcee job was held at Midvalley Conventional Hall and it was for an event that sells gadgets and many awesome inventions. I had a hunch that day tho, felt like I knew something good was about to happen but I was more concern about my emcee job. I didn't want to screw up my first time, as it would be a good platform for me so I could improve myself in near future. To build up my charisma and confidence too!

So it all started as I got up the stage and begun my emcee job. We were talking, playing games with the crowd and it is really amazing how "difficult" it is to give away FREE freebies! People are shy and some are so afraid of coming up to the stage! But it's understandable tho, imagine the whole crowd watching you doing something embarrassing.

And suddenly, in the middle of the crowd, there she was, sitting down there smiling at me. It was when I was doing the talking and I actually fumbled as my eyes met hers. I had this HUGGEEEEEE smile in my heart and I never felt so happy before. She was sitting there, giving me that super awesome surprise by just attending my first emcee event. Words couldn't express how much what she did for me just by being there.

So this post is a dedication to her, for being spontaneous and sweet enough to come and visit me for my very first emcee job. Thank you so much, you don't know how much it means to me. Really, truly from the bottom of my heart.

Here's another post that goes out to how I feel towards certain things.

It is a simple story, a girl meets a guy, they both fell in love and eventually love took them to another different level of the story. But if we look beyond the story, there might be another story which took place earlier.

Everyone has a story in their life. Everyone has chapters that we wrote and it became part of our memories, and we continue writing.

I came across a story which I felt like I was the bad guy. The one who spoilt everything in that other story. Mine's perfectly fine, and getting along just fine. But I somehow felt very bad, as tho I have done something bad..

Then I've come to realize that, life is like that. Reality hits us hard, we're not living in a fairytale. I'm sorry to the other person, but somehow things fell in for both of us and it's been a great story and it will continue to be one.

I know one thing for sure, I've met someone who sees my flaws as part of myself. That's the beauty of her. She never did looked down on me, no matter what situation I am, no matter what I asked, she's a very determined girl. And of course, independent. She taught me how things an actual girl thinks about an outing. For a date or something like dinner. It's funny and she always puts that smile on me.

Right now, I know I'm sure of what I am capable of, and to make the best of it. I made this compilation of smiles she had given me, and it's still counting. 73, and it would be 74 when you read this.

You, made me whole. You, complete me, and you, filled up my empty life with happiness. I luv u, Jazel Ee JiaJing.

Remember this line, the partial story I told you, that gaps between your fingers that God made for you are for me to fill it with mine and hold on to it forever.

-kel-

A past of mine..

I came across an old post, dated 31st Oct 2010. Something I would like to share about my past a little on how I went through a lot..

I once fell for a girl whom made me think that the world isn't very judgmental after all. She turned things around and made me feel like i'm still worth something. A piece of something perhaps. Slowly i grew more fond of her, thinking i could be able to achieve something in return to prove my capability. Thus, it's not what i think it is. It's not how life works. You want it to happen, it does. But does it happen bcos u made it happen or it happens bcos it was fated? I no longer see the meaning of love.

I met various people, made plentiful of friends and lost many great friends. I made a wrong step in life but i realized and i tried to take the other step in a new path. Feels awkward, feels great at the same time but sense the discomfort of the new environment. I learnt things fast, i learnt how to grow better. Mature u say, perhaps i've still got a long way to go. Yes i admit, so much more to learn, to see life in a different way.

So here i am writing a note, perhaps to some people, I may be whining, complaining and self-pity but i write, bcos i feel like it is a way to express how i feel. When i put in words that comes out from my mouth, it is easily forgotten like a wind passing through ur ears. Words are the strength of me now and this is how i would express my feelings. Some said i tried too hard, some said it's the way u do things that's all wrong. Right now, i'm literally confused. Not confused in making decisions, but confused in life. Weird. I know it is contradicting but hey, that's what i feel.

I looked in a mirror. I see me. I felt hopeless, as tho i can't help much.

Been couple of months till i really had some hardcore thinking about what i want in life. Slowly i'm trying to make some progress and i guess i'm doing pretty good on that. What's lacking now is im really confused. about this one person who made me think so much. I don't know what it is but it gives me a really mixed feelings. i ALWAYS admired my guyfriends who always have gf who are like super super hawt and i always figure out, what is it that they see in them.*no offence to any of my bros who has superhot gf* Money? Style? Personality? I always scratch my head when i think of it. A friend once told me i tried too hard. perhaps. Another said im too fast. ok, slow things down. Then when i slow it down, another guy jumps in front of her and poof she disappears. Fml serious fml. What am i doing? i dont know anymore. hah, i laugh at myself sometimes for being such a loser. I met many girls that i knew if i tried, i could. But why hesitate..? i asked myself why sometimes. But i really don't think i know the answer yet.

Fortunately, i learnt that friends, some can be dependable, some can be a real jackass and some can be literally a 2 face assbite. Friends whom i was onced called brother, turned their backs on me bcos of my lifestyle. With regrets, i knew it was wrong but with my new lifestyle, i learnt so much and gain that temporary popularity and fame. Nt worth it.Friends whom were once my "brothers" now no longer acknowledge me even as friend. Walked into the restaurant, they didn't even bother to shake and ask how's life. "Yo fatty wassup" they said. A good "bro" of mine said i didn't bothered to email him, not even concern to ask where or how is he. I guess that was my bad. But can't you do the same first? Takes 2 to tango right? Now, i am happy with the one bro who trusts me and cared for me. I guess :P who is so kind in many ways its hard to expect it out of him, of all m friends. Shows that true friends do exist huh.Now, i feel really really reluctant to do anything.Besides working and exercising, i think i'll stick to that routine. Maybe i should start going to shaolin temple. better life there. I wish i could handle my life like making fried rice. Add some oil, put d rice, salt, spices, egg,and voala. Nope, kel, that's not how life works.

I just hope that this someone who knows what or why i wrote this note understands what this stupid note is all about. Confusing as it may sound, but it's just like a puzzle. Take a piece of puzzle at a time and try to put it in places. My life's all jumble up now. I just took 2 puzzles and placed them where it should be. Now, who'll be next to help me?Who..will complete me?

Kelvin Ng.31 Oct 2010. ( copy paste from the notes in Facebook. )

Today, Monday 22th August 2011. If I were to say that who managed to fill up those missing puzzle pieces, there is someone now. There is someone who will soon be able to complete me, make my life whole.

I always did comparisons, always asking questions. Sometimes I asked myself, am I that lucky to have someone like her in my life? Indeed I am. My perception towards love, has changed because of her. She made things differently for me. She looked at me as a lover, an equal.

I always had this thought in my mind that women are indeed influenced heavily by materialistic behavior. She proved me wrong. Money can't buy happiness. Money can't put that gorgeous smile on that face. Well, it can, but only temporary.

She made my world seems brighter.

And she's driving me crazily, in love. =)

A question I've been wanting to ask..

I always wanted to ask but it didn't seem like it was the right time, and when it was, I couldn't say out the question. I really wanted this, and I'm gonna make this right. The best out of it, and to make sure it is one heck of a moment that we both won't forget.



Wait for me, baby. I'll sweep you off your feet.



P.s. Sorry for the short post again, am really tired and got to work early tomorrow. I really miss you. :)

A time to bond..

It's a beautiful night, a night with just the two of us.

She picked me up after her work, and we've been chilling together since then. It was nice to have her around me and she is indeed a very good company. No matter how many times I've repeated myself, she has the most unique,gorgeous smile that you find it hard to find in many people.

Right now, she's snoring right next to me while I blog, it's a cute sight.

Guess it's time for me to snore :P

Nights.

My Dear Superwoman

It is my pleasure to be of some help to you, when you needed someone to be there.

Back in the olden days, when the damsel is in distress, the knight in shining armor will turn up and saves her from whatever that is causing the damsel to distress.

So basically yeah, I can say I will be there for you, no matter what. To put it in a more promising words,I will TRY to be there for you, no matter what it takes.

After all, I'm your superman. Lol.


p.s. sorry for the short post, I'm really tired and I got to work soon, will update more soon! :) and imy jj! <3

A secret lover

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I can never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best, when you say nothing at all.

-Ronan Keating, When you say nothing at all.

That is something which I can see what we have between us. There's a lot in my mind, thinking about the future, how we would overcome things together and how we would enjoy each others company. I've not really been in a proper date/relationship so "sila tunjuk ajar ya". What I actually meant is, of course I've been dating and also being in a relationship, but I never really did much in the past, as in bringing her to somewhere romantic, or doing surprises or even making Valentine's Day special. I didn't do much to be honest.

I used to be a useless bum, thinking my world revolves around me. I could say I was self-centered and selfish. So now, it's been almost 3 years since I was in a relationship and things have changed, tremendously. I am a whole new person, and I'm most definitely different in many ways. Better, of course.

I've learned through so much pain and hardship that it made me more mature in many ways. So, as days past by, I hope I could learn as much as I can from all these and I also hope that she could teach me along the way. Day by day, as how it seems, we get to know each other more, better in many ways. She's still shy, most definitely but she's beginning to feel more comfortable sharing with me, and I thank you for that. =) She does makes me jealous at times, but hey, if I'm not to be jealous, it would mean that I didn't care, right? So I'm a tiny whiny bit of jealous, but like I always told her, I'm confident. HEHE. Tho we have our differences, she never looked at me differently. That's why she's so special to me.

Our journey will soon start, a story about K and J. A lover in secret, that has yet to be revealed, a person who cared for me like no others.

She kinda reminded me about certain quotes that I written before, and I was glad to share it with her. I have a craze to do a tattoo on both of my arms, so I've gotten this quote, from this. "If I were to do a tattoo about you, I would do it on my arms so I know that I have you within my grasps, forever.

I shall show you a glimpse of her. She's my diamond. *<3*

Dreams..

I pinched myself, a thousand times for the past few days every time I woke up. Is this real? Is this really happening?, I ask myself.

I guess it is, as everyday when I wake up in the morning or night, I would see her picture on my phone, reminding me how lucky I am to have her in my life. Lucky? Indeed I am. What are the odds of being the most outstanding among those who tried earlier than me? I didn't know, but I just tried. Confidence kept me going, and of course, with some effort too on her side.

If this is a dream, I wouldn't want to wake up. I would stop time in my dreams just to be by her side, treasuring every single moment. The glimpse of her eye makes plenty of guys turn their heads. Her sweet smile melts hearts like how the sun melts an ice cream. Somehow, I laughed to myself, I brought myself upon a war. To protect her from the bees, and to be the best bee. "THIS IS SPARTA!" lol.

And of course, in order to be the best bee, I need sheltox. LOL! Hahaha! I'm sure only JJ and Angeline gets this part.

This dream, is one dream worth remembering. It's just the beginning, but it's already giving me a good feeling about this.


I guess it's time for me to hit the bed again, before my princess gets mad at me for not sleeping.

She's a dream. Don't wake me up ya! :P

P.s - I woke up, just because I forgot to blog for you, so here it is! <3 hehe.

Romance, something I'm new at.

It's been a while since I was being romantic. So if I were to be given a chance to share my thoughts, I have some up in my sleeves for my love one, JJ. Nothing to be embarrassed about since it's just a matter of time before we eventually fall deeper in love.

I've got nothing to hide from her, I'll be always truthful to her and I'll do my best to keep her happy always. We can't always expect the best out of everything but we'll try ain't it? Hopefully I could keep this momentum going and gradually learn what a relationship is truly all about as I've met a girl who loved me for who I am, literally.

So here goes a few sayings, for you.

If you held up 11 roses into a mirror, you’d be looking at 12 of the most beautiful things in the world.

I miss you when I'm not with you....when I'm not with you all I do is think about you...when I think about you I just want to be with you....and when I'm with you it's like all of my dreams have come true.

You deserve the world, and I know I can't give that to you. So I'll give you the next best thing....my world.


Last night, I experienced something, which I haven't gotten before in my life. To be able to see tears of joy, I couldn't be any luckier than any guy on earth. I made my point, she's the one. :)
Something worth sharing. I'm really tired and hopefully I'll recover soon from this annoying cough I've gotten. I had a great evening and I hope you had one too. It's a memorable night.

I shall update more, because this is really a brief post, my eyes are shutting and I'm hitting the bed. Nights people.